I feel better today. Still waiting for some of the test results, but already I feel like an ominous cloud has dissipated from overhead.....

I deleted my NaNoWriMo file today.

I made it to 10,000+ words, with over half of it happening yesterday. I had to force myself to even write that - I was stalling and making excuses all week, accomplishing nothing. So I stopped and thought about why I didn't want to go on.

It was becoming precisely the kind of story I dislike reading; lots of turmoil and internal drama, filled with sad stories, hard luck cases and lots of personal self-exploration that goes nowhere and has no positive outcomes. Like those books one finds with the "Oprah Book Club" seal of approval, it was the kind of depressing journey that I normally avoid like it's the coming of the next plague and has virulent spores hidden in every period.

I hated it. I'd originally meant for this beginning to be just a backstory I could hang some road trip tales on, but it became something that made me look into those dusty corners of the psyche that one should not venture into without some professional help. So I hit the delete button. I don't want to take all these great road experiences and plop them into something I hate, so I'm going to make them into short stories.

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On a poker front, I've been working at getting my bankroll back up into triple digits (at first I was struggling to get it back up into double digits, but am thankfully past that stage now). Have had some success with the $5 x 18 SnG's which has allowed me to delve back into my beloved $12+1 shorthanded one table SnG's. Some wins, more losses...you know the story.

My game is improving though...I'm working on trying to channel the same energy that hit me during the Bad Beat on Cancer and the first Big Game tourneys, and have had some good success with it.

I'm *really* happy with how I played CC's first Thursday Bash, and even though I was the Bubble Bubble Girl (again), I walked away from the computer happy and knowing I played just about every hand well.

CC is a most amazingly nice person...not only has he set up this tourney thing, but he felt so bad about taking me out in the bubble with a suckout that he gave me a Bubble prize out of his own winnings. What a sweetie!

And speaking of nice peeps, my gratitude goes out to Joanada and FastPitch for staking me to some buyins on Full Tilt on Friday so I could keep playing and drinking, drinking and playing.

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