things are not going according to plan
1 Comments Published by katitude on Friday, May 19, 2006 at 10:09 a.m..
Yeah. Like there's a plan.
It's not been a good few days. There are things going on in life that I don't wish to discuss, but are seriously affecting my play. It's hard to concentrate on a poker game when there are large ominous things hanging over your head.
I sat at a game yesterday, a little $6+60 tournament entry token thing on Full Tilt last night with Weak and Garth, and it struck me about halfway through...I didn't care about poker. At all. The next thought was "So why am I here then?", and I had no real answer, other than some escapism that clearly wasn't working.
It took me four hands to bail out. The denouement occurred when I was chasing a boat when I KNEW that the other guy in the hand had a flush. Of course I know the odds on me making a boat on the river, but was overcome by an attack of the whatevers (the sullen younger sisters of the awfukkits). I lost and I still didn't care. I said in the chat that I blame the hormone rollercoaster, but the real key is apathy.
So, until I really feel like it I think I'm going to stop for a bit. Could be a week; could be days or even hours. Who knows.
Yeah, who am I kidding....I'll see y'all tonight.
To my fellow Canucks - Happy Victoria Day long weekend all!
It's not been a good few days. There are things going on in life that I don't wish to discuss, but are seriously affecting my play. It's hard to concentrate on a poker game when there are large ominous things hanging over your head.
I sat at a game yesterday, a little $6+60 tournament entry token thing on Full Tilt last night with Weak and Garth, and it struck me about halfway through...I didn't care about poker. At all. The next thought was "So why am I here then?", and I had no real answer, other than some escapism that clearly wasn't working.
It took me four hands to bail out. The denouement occurred when I was chasing a boat when I KNEW that the other guy in the hand had a flush. Of course I know the odds on me making a boat on the river, but was overcome by an attack of the whatevers (the sullen younger sisters of the awfukkits). I lost and I still didn't care. I said in the chat that I blame the hormone rollercoaster, but the real key is apathy.
ap·a·thy,n.
Lack of interest or concern, especially regarding matters of general importance or appeal; indifference. Lack of emotion or feeling; impassiveness.
So, until I really feel like it I think I'm going to stop for a bit. Could be a week; could be days or even hours. Who knows.
Yeah, who am I kidding....I'll see y'all tonight.
To my fellow Canucks - Happy Victoria Day long weekend all!
We still <3 you Kat. It's too much fun playing with you. Take whatever time you need to center yourself and COME BACK! We'll be waiting with *Hugs* aplenty.