I remember why I like this game.
But it's like there were two games I was playing. The early game where there were a lot of moments when everything clicked. I made my draws, sets held up, and high pocket pairs only got creamed once...yes you heard me...ONCE! I was having fun, I was confident and aggressive, and playing with both mind and heart. I was in first or second place for the better part of it. I'd get moved to a new table, and someone would type "oh shit, the chipleader" in the table chat, and it would take me a second to realize it was ME!
But then there was the other game, the late game. Where everyone's stacks got big, not just mine. The blinds got big, and I started to overthink things and go against my instinct (which would have doubled me up at least twice, btw). People hit me up in the girlie chat and railed me (thank you!), but I got to the point where I was second guessing myself and asking advice on too many hands, advice I already really knew the answer to. I was too conscious of my place in the standings, tightened up too much and got too cautious.
And while I'm pleased with the 700%-ish ROI for this game, my main emotion right now is some self-directed anger. I had it in me today to win this, or at least make top 3. And I didn't.
But then again, I could be angry that some donkey took me out on the bubble with a suckout. Again. *Grin.
But it's like there were two games I was playing. The early game where there were a lot of moments when everything clicked. I made my draws, sets held up, and high pocket pairs only got creamed once...yes you heard me...ONCE! I was having fun, I was confident and aggressive, and playing with both mind and heart. I was in first or second place for the better part of it. I'd get moved to a new table, and someone would type "oh shit, the chipleader" in the table chat, and it would take me a second to realize it was ME!
But then there was the other game, the late game. Where everyone's stacks got big, not just mine. The blinds got big, and I started to overthink things and go against my instinct (which would have doubled me up at least twice, btw). People hit me up in the girlie chat and railed me (thank you!), but I got to the point where I was second guessing myself and asking advice on too many hands, advice I already really knew the answer to. I was too conscious of my place in the standings, tightened up too much and got too cautious.
And while I'm pleased with the 700%-ish ROI for this game, my main emotion right now is some self-directed anger. I had it in me today to win this, or at least make top 3. And I didn't.
But then again, I could be angry that some donkey took me out on the bubble with a suckout. Again. *Grin.
nice work
nice run, glad you had some fun!