It is estimated that 70% of high achievers feel like imposters, certain that the present level of achievement does not result from true ability and they will be found out or others will discover the fraud they really are. The Imposter Complex is doubting and discrediting your abilities and achievements. Are you really good or have you just fooled everyone? Sometimes we agree with a person’s compliments but deep inside we deny it to ourselves.
~ Jan D'Arcy
Hoyazo left an interesting comment to my last post that's really made me think. Basically, he said he's not buying my "I'm not very good at poker and am going to get slapped down soon by people far, far better than me" crap anymore.
So why am I still buying it? I've been told lately that my game has improved dramatically, and while I may sort-of-kind-of think they're right, I don't believe. And it's that lack of belief and confidence that is crippling during tournaments. I've got shake this before Vegas in July, or I am dead meat.
On to last night, the Mookie Big O tourney - don't ask me how it happened but I won! That's two in a row....I'm shocked. I'm happy, but I'm shocked. And in the back of my head is that little voice that says "Lucky, that's all...next week they'll find out how badly you SUCK".
Many thanks again to Mookie for setting these up...I ahve so much fun, if only to see if I can outlast SirF yet again (I'm now at 6 for 6, a stat that gives me no end of pleasure *grin).
Come to PokerStars next Wednesday..the more the merrier!!!!